I understand this completely! My bf thinks that because he's not drinking himself to oblivion every day anymore that he is fine and doesn't have a problem. He buys a six pack a day, even with me repeating calmly every day I don't want him to drink today. Or if he starts feeling sick, and he doesn't buy any for a few days to a week, he thinks that proves he doesn't have a problem. He also thinks that when he buys two 24 oz beers instead of 6 12 oz beers that is somehow him drinking less.... Basically I'm supposed to be happy that he is drinking "moderately" rather than "heavily". I too feel sick and disgusted whenever I see him with a beer in his hand. It's a horrible reminder of what he can become when he drinks, and the fact that no matter how much I want him to quit, he won't.