You need to go to your Dr. He/she will set you up on a plan to stop tappering off. It took a LONG time for me to get off all my pills, but when you are taking that many, it is very important not to just stop taking them. It must be monitered by your doctor, and it is a slow process. If you are getting them illegally, you need to let your Dr know about those too, and how much. I wish you the best of luck. I know how hard it is.