I know someone exactly like you. If you are on bi-polar medicine please stay on it. The guy I know decides at times to stop taking his medicine and starts drinking and he is a mess. He gets kicked out of bars and it is bad. I am not bi-polar but see the effects. Stay on the medicine and stay away from the booze. Everyone likes him when he is on his medicine and noone likes hin when he justs hits the booze.