Hi unchained,
Welcome. I think you'll find we alcoholics can all relate. You may face a tough road with the DUI, but there is hope. I am Traid, I am a recovered alcoholic. Fear kept me in the chains for 3 years. I knew I had a problem, but was WAY too scared to admit, accept and find the solution. I had no hope. I was always justifying and denying. I was suicidal at times. I can now look at my entire drinking career and honestly admit I was alcoholic from day one. I never could stop at one, and even when I did not want to drink, swore it off for good, I ended up drinking. Have you ever read Alcoholics Anonymous (AKA The Big Book)? I found my solution in the program outlined within. Fellowship also helps with the initial fear. You'll meet some great people here who can guide you in the right direction, but only if you are willing to take the trip. Sobriety rocks, and so does life.
Best,
Traid.