Welcome Emma!
You can lean on us for support - a lot of people here are just starting out, and we've all been at that point at some time. I drank alone, too, and it got to the point where I realized I was hiding from the world, and even worse, from myself.
I think if you do some reading here you'll see that the future is a pretty bleak one when it centers around alcohol. I know you're worth more than that. Stick around - sobriety isn't as scary as it seems......
