You should have bought something better than TAAKA to relapse on... just kidding. Thanks for posting about your relapse, it helps remind me of what I would have to look forward to if I start drinking again. Try to manage your misconceptions about alcohol in order to stay stopped. That's what I am trying to do.
I think I can stay sober as long as I continue to see alcohol for what it really is: a depressing boring drug that makes me feel lousy when it wears off, a substance that will leave me alone with nowhere to go, a drug that makes me say and do things that I will regret.
It's only when I stop caring about myself or fail to manage those misconceptions that the desire to relapse really takes hold. I have to admit though, if I am so miserable at any point in time that just a little relief from my misery is tempting.