DylanS

Today is Day 7 no alcohol (day 3 no Oxy).

Yesterday I went to dinner with a friend (wth whom I normally got drunk about once a week).

We went to a sandwich place which, oddly, has a ping pong table. We sat and talked for about an hour, played ping pong for awhile, then went somewhere else for dinner for another hour or so.

My friend drank only water, as did I. It was different, a little awkward with the change BUT....the night went by so slowly. It's amazing how fast time went when I was drinking/taking Oxy. Time would speed by in, literally, a blur. Next day would find me going through the motions, bumbling my way to work, trying to just 'get through the day', maybe taking Oxy to help with the hangover.

This morning I woke up, clear headed and alert, enjoying the blustery winter weather, thinking about my day and the coming weekend. I can't remember the last time I had this clear, no-guilt, no-dread, no living-on-the-edge feeling. A big upside is that I don't feel that dread - that sort of background anxiety about what I'm doing, about how I'm living, how I'm lying to my wife, hiding what I'm doing, and worrying if anyone from work saw me out in public when I was drunk, and can I just slide through yet another day as the work piles up and I get further behind.

Sounds bizarre, but it feels fresh and guilt-free and clean.

It's amazing.