It dawned on me one day that when A was sober for those few hours in the morning, and he was grumpy, mean, surly, and often just impossible to be around, that was who he really was.......... Not a nice person. Not somebody I needed to spend anymore time with. It was like paying on a dead horse........
All of his personality, charm, wit, and humor came out of a bottle....... Of course it was a small window of opportunity to communicate with him. The first couple of drinks he seemed back to normal........... as the day progressed and he consumed more, that's when Mr. nasty know-it-all arrived, to perform his daily sh*t show..........
I am sorry to hear what you are living, but it does sound like you are reaching your limit. I wish you the best, hope you find the answer for you......... take care