Originally Posted by
TylerDurden 
I'd like to use it - only I am such a miserable person that it is very very hard.
If it was as simple as "get up and use it," I'd be cured
That voice inside your head; it tells us lies; honestly. Early in sobriety, I've thought, "I can't do this, it's too hard, I don't deserve to be happy anyway!", and you know what? It was all just lies; completely wrong; just thoughts, not facts.
If you want it enough, you'll do what it takes; maybe it'll take more suffering to get you to that point, or maybe you'll never get there and your alcoholism will kill you?
But that voice is telling you lies; trust me; I'm being serious here.