Hi Torn,
Welcome to SR. There is a lot of support and healing here. It can be frustrating, painful, and scary to watch a loved one consumed by addiction. Unfortunately, all the begging, pleading, threatening, comforting, nagging, etc., won't stop something that has to run it's course. But we can learn to heal, and we don't have to go through this alone. I'd like to invite you to join us in the Naranon and friends and families forums. There are a lot of people dealing with the same types of situations. Together we are finding healthier ways to cope. Feel free to post, reply, or just browse. Hugs, Magic