I want to give a little more info on my drinking, just so I can get the best support from you all.
When I am alone, or with one person I trust (like my housemate), I don't overdrink. I just have a glass or two--don't hanker for more.
When I am with someone new, or a group of people who are drinking, even if they are drinking casually, I go overboard. That leads to the blackouts.
At this point I'm not planning on cutting out the drink or two I have with my roomie in the evening. I'm planning on cutting out all the drinking with groups/at bars/with new people. So, every triggering situation=no drinking.
CaiHong, you're right about the guy. Which is why I cannot drink around him--I need to keep my personal boundaries up right now. If I'm going to befriend or date him, I need to go real slow. Drinking does not help with that!!