Welcome to SR. There's a lot of good support here. Identifying that you have a problem and seeking support are good first steps. I can relate to what you're saying -- early on in sobriety, I ran into the conflict of not wanting to isolate myself (being alone in my head is a ***ing horrible idea -- my mind would have killed my body long ago if it didn't need it for transportation), but also not being able to be around others who were drinking or couldn't understand why I had behaved the way I had. I found the solution to both problems in AA, so that's something you might want to consider. First things first though, just don't drink. I have yet to run into any problem that I couldn't make worse by drinking.
--Fenris.