UPDATE: Thought & Prayed about this all night long. This morning I gave her a hug
and told her that I do love her and she is not a bad person. That she needs to get help and I cant do that for her. And that I need to take care of me.
She feels that she is a bad person, for her past. I explained to her the cycle of addiction. She agreed and said she was going to get help. Once again, I am letting
go and letting God.
I have peace about my decision today and I feel good about it.
She is going to go look a new place tonight. I told her that she doesnt have to be out right away, but she does need to find something soon. And that while she was living here, I would appreciate it if she wouldnt drink and hide it. I could not mentally handle that. She said she understood. Do I believe her? Umm...Not really...But I have peace
knowing that I set my boundaries and being honest with her.
As far as paying the house payment, guess it goes back to ME, Trusting God...
I shake my head at myself, amazed, on the anger that set in with me the other night.
I was so upset, I think I could have hurt her. That was so scarey....This was the first time, since my xah left, that Ive had to deal with someone drunk in my home. WOW!
It makes me so grateful, that I dont have to deal with xah face to face drunk.
I know, I could not deal with that anymore in my life...
Today, I am grateful