Calvin,
I enjoyed reading on these forums for a while before I joined.
My obsession with drinking started when I was 18... I'm 35.
Really I think Dee is right, you need to know that it's over.
I've tried twice in the past year to moderate my drinking. I actually wrote out a plan to moderate. How many drinks, how many times per week, which situations were acceptable, how to space out my drinks, drinking water between drinks... there was a lot to the plan. Exhausting!
I don't have to worry about any of that anymore.
Just my two pennies, you can still count today as day one, who cares if you drank at 1 am. If you want to skip the "goodbye drinks" and count today as your start point, nobody says you can't.