If I could have staved off my alcoholism with sheer force of willpower, I never would have had a problem. Life isn't a struggle for me now. I used to drink, now I don't. I got help getting from point a to point b, because my willpower sucked. I love my life now, and I'm gracious for my recovery. Superhuman, no way.. just a girl who admitted defeat, got help, and got recovered.