It's not a constant struggle tho - none of us here are superhuman believe me LOL
I finally accepted that drinking and I are a bad mix - I can have the life I want...or I can drink. Not both.
I really want to be sober - I prefer life this way. '
It's really not a struggle any more and believe it or not, I'm not constantly mentally battling the next drink....
You can get here too joybot
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