Thank you all. So hard to think about the wonderful man I thought I knew and know that he fought demons and had a horrible secret. Saw some of our mutual friends tonight. Was thinking we might be able to comfort each other... we are all going such a myriad of feelings that we couldn't seem to connect for each other.... the anger and then the guilt, followed by words that I didn't want to hear and more anger mixed in with love and loss... how could he do this to all of us??