Welcome to the SR family!
You are not alone. We understand and we are here to support you.
You have found an excellent source of information and support. There are permanent posts (called stickies) at the top of the forum page. They contain some of our stories and loads of wisdom from members that have walked the same path you are now walking.
I will share links for two of my favorite posts. One is for information about alcoholism and one contains steps that helped me while living with active alcoholism.
This is the one with information about alcohol addiction. It is a link that contains excerpts from the book "Under the Influence". That book explained to me how alcohol is a chemical that penetrates every cell of the alcoholics body. That is how they become addicted mentally and physically to the drug.
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...influence.html
This is the link to steps that helped me:
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...l-problem.html
Please make yourself at home by reading and posting as much as needed.