And so it goes
My friend who was in the hospital passed away this morning. I am so full of emotions right now. I am sad, I am angry, I am confused, I feel guilty. I introduced this guy to my best friend. They were married a month ago and now he is dead.
She is here at my house and is simply devasted. It is so surreal. How could he have loved her like he professed and done this to her. This morning as I stood at his bedside and watched him die I couldn't help but feel such anger, shame, pain and relief all at once.
I don't understand how someone can have so much to live for, so many friends who would have done anything to help him could do this. I know alcoholism is a disease, but it's also a choice to reach out or reach for the bottle.
I went to an al-anon meeting last night...helped, but just doesn't make any sense.