Very nice post. Yes I've found wonderful support and advice since joining. 4 days feels like 4 years. I have quite a mess of a life to see if I can salvage, but I know the first step to doing that is to not use. Then the addict in me whispers into my ear and says I've gone to far, that I've messed up my life beyond the point of no return, so I might as well just use again.
At least with the help I've got here, I can recognize those are NOT my thoughts. Thanks to everyone this site is more or less my lifeline right now.