Am I still in recovery?
I think I've seen this sort of topic more than once but here we go again.
I have found myself wondering if I'm still in recovery, if I'm still an addict, that sort of thing. And even what those mean. When do you stop being an addict? Or do you stop being an addict? I don't feel like an addict. I remember pretty well what that felt like and I feel immeasurably better physically and emotionally than I did then. So am I still recovering? Is my recovery complete? Am I in maintenance phase now? Oh my, this gets so confusing.
To put this in the frame of my life, I have had one relationship since getting clean, and that ended in August. In the last couple weeks I've met a guy that I really like, and against all odds he seems to like me. Yeah... I feel like I'm about 15 again. So I am nowhere remotely close to telling this guy I used to be hooked on drugs. But eventually, if this continues, it'll probably come up (and if not with him, someone else). So what do I tell him and when? Or do I tell him?