I'm sorry for your pain but having been there...drinking doesn't take away the pain - even if you manage to banish it tonight....it will be there tomorrow....along with all the shame and guilt and any other consequences that might ensue from drinking.
Broken hearts are hard but they do heal...if we let them.
I lost 2 years of my life drinking over someone (1997-98 are still only a handful of flashed memories to me). I still had to deal with the loss when I eventually sobered up.
It's ok to be sad...I know it's uncomfortable but it's a lot quicker the natural way than it is drinking, FN.
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