Ivan, that was PERFECT!
You nailed it so well!
That progression, that sequence of events and emotions, is EXACTLY what happened to me.
Sometimes we tend to think we are the ONLY ones who experience the drug this way. Then, we come to places like SR, and we are amazed to find that isn't true.
THAT is empowering. Especially the part about coming to the realization that the DOC is a BIG FAT LIE. I just wish more people would see it for what it is BEFORE they have to suffer through what you so rightly identified as the "pain of addiction" being worse than any kind of physical pain I've ever been in.
Right on IVAN!
Congratulations on your success through this most recent journey!
FT