Originally Posted by
quitforme79 
Thanks guys. I told myself from the beginning that I would eventually drink again (socially). THAT thought was the problem. So, this time around I KNOW I won't ever drink AT ALL. My therapist said she didn't think I was an alcoholic hahah Doesn't matter what she says or what label I give to myself. One glass turns to 2 bottles to black out to suicidal thoughts. I did learn from this and for that I am grateful. And especially grateful for this forum!
I had the same problem, thinking that if I stayed sober long enough, my tolerance would go down and I would become a happy "two-drinks-that's-enough" social drinker. So I blew 79 days of sobriety in October and my social drinking experiment ended up in a 6 day binge plus a horrible withdrawal as an added bonus.
Accepting that we will never be able to drink again is hard, but it's the key to recovery. Good luck!