hurtandconfused

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This is my first time to ever post anything to any "chat" group ever. I am very new, but in desperate need of some help or advice. I have been married for three years to my complete soul mate. I never new real love like this exisited. We are both in our late twenties and way passed the "party" age, but our beautiful relationship changes every time the weekend rolls around. When I met my husband we would go out every weekend with our groups of party (so called)friends and of course we had a blast. After a while we tried to move our lives in different ways. We are ready to grow up, and have a REAL life,..... house, children and family. But we are stuck in a terrible routine. More so my husband than me. I could leave this and never look back I feel lucky that for some reason drugs and alchol have not taken a grip on me like him. I try to comrpomise with him when he is sitting around bored on friday or saturday and say " okay we will go out but no drugs and we are home at 2:00am" (what happen to those days?) He promises and promises that this time will be different, And I so stupiddly believe him. The next thing you know it's 12:00 and hes looking for something other than alchol. And gets MADDDDD if he can't find anything. I can't stop him at this point. I have to let him do it or we will have a terrible fight ( I have learned the hard way)( but not physical) Once this process starts he keeps wanting to go go go till the next day and into the night and even if there are no more drugs to be bought or no more money to spend, he will drink anything around that he can find (FYI he dosen't even drink one beer EVER durring the week not after work or with dinner or friends EVER) He will go till he is delieriuos(sp) and sick and by this time mad because he is comming down so hard. And of course I have to take care of him every time. It is so shameful for me to look at my strong, gentle, loving, and devoted husband like this. Am I living a dream that some day this will stop? When he is finaly sober he sits for hours, even days saying how he wants a differnet life for me and for us. This man is a good man a traditional gentleman who pulls is weight even more sometime around the house, who wakes me up still almost every morning with kisses and snuggles who gets lost in my eyes as I do his, our love is truly sent from above. I am not trying to sound silly or childish here I just need some major advice. How do you help some one who only has a problem like this a couple of times a month. I love him more than anything but cannot continue to live like this.

Thank you for taking the time to read my long post!