which way is the right way
not sure where to start exactly, but i have been taking suboxone for a little over a year starting at 2 1/2 a day 8mg and ive brought myself to 1 a day. i practice stoping like not taking any until im at my worst sometime when withdrawls are in ful effect. and it dont seem like im actually progressing sometimes i make it a day rarely 2 days completely without, my record is 6 days cant beleive i gave up. im just not myself when im sober like my personality is gone. i really try and the constant failure is pretty depressing just not knowing how long the withdrawls will go on.
i was pretty much a buzzaholic for the first couple of years then it converged to strictly narcotics of any kind. i dont really have anybody to talk to about this stuff im just 24 yrs old my family has no idea that im an addict they just wonder where all my money goes and ive been doin drugs since before i got with my gf,about 8 years ago. shes pretty much the only one that knows other than friends and i dont really talk to them anymore there still not trying to quit and will probably never try, and we dont never talk about it i dont think she understands. ive been to a couple of meetings and the guy leading it seems like he is trying to brainwash everyone with lies saying that you dont withdraw after taking subs so i seem like the bad egg telling him otherwise and all kinds of other stuff. the drs there just right the script and move on to the next person
i dont really know what kind of help im asking for but anything will be good these forums have been good thus far. its just nice hearing people talking about success with these programs because for now it just seems like i go to legal drug dealers every week
thanks