As long as I kept relapsing, I was in denial. When I finally realized deep in my soul that I could never drink again it was a relief. It was the beginning of getting out of the fear and loss and loneliness of alcoholism. Now I come here to get and give strength and hope. And helping to keep others sober keeps me sober too as it makes me realize - again - where I came from and how badly I don't want to go back there.
