Originally Posted by
wpainterw 
So the scary part is -how can I be sure? How can you be sure? Even after 23 years? Is it still there waiting for me? Maybe that’s why I’m writing this, why I often log on to this website. Is that why you're here too?
wpainterw: I can be sure that I'm never going to drink again the same way I'm sure I'll never smoke again, starve myself again (I had an eating disorder), sleep with my ex-husband, or engage in other self-destructive behaviors that are no longer part of my life.
I am not afraid. I come here to help others, and I bet you come here for the same reason, at least in part.