I can understand being scared - my addiction just about took everything from me - including nearly my life.
I was certainly deathly scared of relapse for a while.
But I've spent a lot of time dealing with my addiction - I know I can deal with everything it has to throw at me.
I've also spent a lot of time rebuilding my life and my self. Still a work in progress but I like the results so far.
I know for a fact I put all that at risk if I drink again.
I'm no longer insane so the old thoughts really lack any power now.
So no not scared - still respectful of the relentlessness of my addiction sure, and not complacent or smug...but not scared...not any more.
That's not why I'm here
Don't you feel that way too wpainterw?
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