Holidays
For the most part, I enjoyed Thanksgiving. I cooked for everyone and didn't get stressed, and my kids had a good time. We served some wine which didn't get to me. But I did notice that during some points on Thanksgiving it felt like something was "missing".
The holidays have always been an especially difficult time of year for me when trying to stay sober. I've done them sober before but, from what I recollect, did not enjoy them that much. I enjoyed Thanksgiving somewhat this year - but I probably enjoyed the day after more (Black Friday shopping, etc with my cousin), which probably would not have been entirely possible without me either being hungover or drunk if I had drank on Thanksgiving.
I just have this very immature notion every holiday season that everyone else is enjoying it more when they get to drink. I can't say I wanted to drink exactly....but I keep coming back to this feeling that something is missing if I don't get to drink during the holidays.
What's your approach to the holidays? Feels like mine is "off" a bit.