Originally Posted by
Impurrfect 
Just MY experience, but even at the end of my using, I didn't really want to quit using - I just wanted the damned consequences to go away.
Interesting. Explains why I was increasingly spending a lot of energy in hiding my drinking. I didn't want to suffer the consequences of my wife knowing the extent of my addiction, so I hid it as much as possible.
I too am a smart fellow and it took me some time to accept my problem with alcohol. An alcoholic? No way! I'm too smart for that to happen.
It was humbling to admit my addiction. Really humbling.