(((Seared))) - there are various methods of recovery. I've abused a few things, crack was what brought me to my knees. However, there are a couple decades, in there, when I didn't want help, I didn't want rehab, etc.
Just MY experience, but even at the end of my using, I didn't really want to quit using - I just wanted the damned consequences to go away. I wasn't really happy using when I relapsed, but I didn't want to let it go.
Some people really don't hit bottoms. I was smart, still am, but all that did was make me a smart addict. I've lost people I loved to addiction - that was THEIR bottom.
I've had to do a few things I didn't want (thanks to my consequences) but I've learned a lot from the people here, and had to want recovery more than anything else before I went after it.
Hugs and prayers,
Amy