I know I have a problem, but I can't make myself stop. Why don't I want it bad enough? Do I need to hit bottom? I already go to an outpatient center twice a week (but I still binge) and one of the counselors there told me I am too smart for my own good. I can pull lots of things off and not get caught. Thus, few consequences = no bottom. My grandfather didn't have a bottom either, he died of an alcohol related heart attack at the age of 55. I wish I were dumber so I could hit my bottom faster.
