I used to sit in my chair and watch TV and smoke and drink and think about how much better I could be and how much better my life could be.
Somehow it took me an inordinate amount of time to join the dots and see that the first step to making those dreams real was to put down the smokes and drink and get up out of the damn chair....
I found the fear of facing reality was much much worse than facing reality, Ed....and nothing was as bad as what I'd already put myself through
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