Hang in there Lulu! It's all part of the growing up process. Crying is good, it's cathartic, really! What your experiancing is normal sweety, guess what? Your begining to feel, SOBER! Your begining to experiance emotions SOBER! Your learning to use the tools to help you practice the principles in all your affairs SOBER! Your right where your supposed to be okay? I know it sucks right now, I had an emotional meltdown early in recovery, and talking, crying, and working with my sponce got me through it. Go to a meeting, get it out, let people listen, perhaps someone in the room needs to hear what you have to say to help them stay sober just for today.
It's going to be okay, promise!