Thank you all for your comments. Im going to print that poem cynical one. I just finished reading a book, don't let your kids kill,you: a guide to parents of drug and alcohol addicted children. It w.as very helpful and I'm sure I'll be reading it again and again.
I've been to a few different therapists, have yet to find someone I've considered to be very helpful. I've never been in therapy before all this started, so maybe I just don't get what it's suppose to be, but it just seems they listen to me but don't offer assistance. Am not saying I won't try it again, but I would only do so if I got a referral from another parent in my position so I'd know the person was actually equipped to help. The last lady I wen to was so sweet but I think I scared her (not me, but my stories ).
Am doing better this morning. Got a bit of sleep and some encouragement from that book! Thank you all for being here