Hypocrite
The one thing i try not to be is a hypocrite be something fake, i always keep it real so i say.
the holidays are here i have a dozen nieces and nephews that are my world. family gathers omg already a bunch of commotion and they parties have not even started. a little history i come from a family of alcoholics. out of my whole family three have made clear of there addictions neither of the three are going because they are not comfortable with themselves and being in a room full of people drinking. so i spoke up suggesting a non alcholoic function omg did hell break loose. im hurt because i thought my family would have agreed and would be no problem for them i guess i was wrong.
but i thinl what is really bugging me is really me! as i briefly mentioned on previous post my oldestest brother went to rehab for meth. he would tell me then and now i need to get better clean or else he cannot be around me. have i stopped using sure here and there. am i currently using yes. im trying to stop but words are easier said than done.
so now u see why i say im afamily hypocrite ive turned into something i never thought i would be.