((Gracey))
Don't give up. You will get through this. Get some literature at your meeting if you can. When things are haywire at my house, I find a lot of comfort and serenity in the literature. I get pumped up at meetings, but that is an hour, and I can't always hold on to that feeling until the next meeting. The literature is there 24/7. Keep trying. You are struggling, but you do have some growth. We all stumble. Sometimes I fall flat on my face. But the important thing is to get back up and keep trying. Hugs, Magic