does the same feeling at the same intensity that you had, still remain today?
Wow - No - not at all. Feel a bit embarrassed I wrote it - at that moment my head felt bad - like it needed something - my chest was tight and I was just overwhelmed. Actually thought of taking a drink on Antabuse (that would have been lovey). So I feel nothing today like I did at that moment last night - lesson for the future huh?
By 9:00pm me and the older kids (age 10 - twins) were watching Harry Potter and all was good - the two younger ones are 6 and 4. They keep me busy but they are good kids and it's really not that bad. Weird how I felt that way though.