There's nothing wrong with you that the rest of us don;t know about UoI.
Many's the time I woke up declaring never again and, as little as two hours later, I was drinking.
I had to accept that I was an alcoholic and that drinking and I would always had a bad relationship.
I went to some pretty extraordinary lengths to get drunk sometimes - I had to decide to apply that same determination to getting sober and staying that way...
I'm glad you made the OP move Uof2008
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