Thanks, boz. I've been here for a while I just can't seem to get this right. I had 5 months for awhile relapsed, made it another couple months after that, and I have now relapsed again. I am just so frustrated and upset with myself. It's just scary to me because It only takes one time of doing something dumb to have a lifetime of regret not just a hangover. I've been to AA, not recently though, and it's hard for me because I am naturally kind of a shy person I guess I need to just keep trying anything until I finally get one that works.