I have been where you are. It's scary and miserable, I know. I've done the outpatient program before, it's not bad. I definitely recommend speaking to your Dr. About this. The program I have now is I see a shrink, and a nutrionist, and my Doc keeps track of how I react and work with suppplements to control cravings. When I'm having a really bad day, I'll hit up an AA meeting. Don't be afraid to try news ways to be sober. There really is no wrong way. Welcome to SR!!!