No I dont have courage to change...........I see them with that book at the meeting I attend..........I find myself broke 99% of the time...........I am trying to get out to a meeting once a week and I need more I realize that...........my AH gives me such a hard time about going on Friday nights.........but I go anyway.........I am afraid to ask for more then that........but I know I need to ..........I am going to find the courage tomorrow and throw it past him about going Sunday night.........I really need a sponsor and I am looking for one............I need someone to put my head on straight when I am in the midst of Chaos..........