The first few days of getting sober for me I spent an inordinate amount of time on SR just reading the posts. A whole slew of feelings were flowing through me at the time and just even readings others' similar experiences helped me through that emotional roller coaster! I'm not a joiner of anything by nature and I feel AA is not for me as well but utilize the resources on this site and you will get better! Hang in there and stick with it, it's for the very best!!!