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Old 11-11-2011, 11:41 AM
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Originally Posted by Chuck48 View Post
When I first started dating my boyfriend, I was thinking about quitting, but my attempts at sobriety were truly half-hearted (and I knew it). For nearly every date, he would pick me up from my house. As someone who suffers with social anxiety AND a tendency to drink more than I should, you can probably guess what I was during right before he'd pick me up...

I never told him that I consider myself an alcoholic, but a couple months into our dating, I did tell him I planned to stop drinking due to health issues. I guarantee he has no idea that I ever abused alcohol.

Last night, he told me that he liked how cheerful, chatty, and spontaneous I was when we first started dating. He said that I've been more withdrawn and serious the past couple months. He hinted that he liked my previous personality more than my current one. To be honest, I do too, but I don't plan to start drinking again to get it back.

Do any of you ever feel like people liked your alcohol-flavored personality more than your sober one? It's kind of a shame, but maybe once I'm fully comfortable with and stable in my sobriety, I'll regain some of my old charm.
I'm just the opposite. I have always been easily sociable and very outgoing. My problem was dealing with stuff when I was alone at home and anxious/bored.

People tell me all the time they HATE my alcohol FUELED personality. If I could control my drinking, I may have had that problem lol. I made a fool of myself one too many times for people to say they liked that version of me better.
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