Thanks for your input everyone. You are all so right. The problem right now is that my friend and I have plane reservations and hostel reservations for Portland. I've been talking to my therapist about my plan for the trip. I have a prescription sleep aide that I can take if need be. I know I am setting myself up for drinking by going to Portland but I really don't see much way out and I really do want to go. I even have a meeting set up with the MSW program at Portland State where I am planning on going for my Masters. I have yet to even visit the city where I might be moving in a year.
Right now I am going to work on a way to have a sober and healthy trip.