I have been sober for 34 days and I am thinking about how happy I will be when I can just start drinking again.
That's your alcoholic voice lying to you. You must have had a good reason to quit. Hold on to that reason and kick that lying voice to the curb.
I relapsed too many times to count before I finally made it for good. I was never 'happy' to start drinking again, on the contrary, I hated myself for giving in and - again - wrecking my sobriety. Drinking never made me happy, it made me wish I were dead.
