Originally Posted by
cuyootoo 
I have relapsed more than 10 times. I think it has probably been more than 20 times. I am having a hard time embracing a life without alcohol ever again. I have been sober for 34 days and I am thinking about how happy I will be when I can just start drinking again.
well think about how crappy you felt about yourself when you were on day one, and how crappy you will feel if you have to go back there. And how if you keep on trying you will have the same old tired dialogue running through your head ,'its ok, I can moderate', 'i love drinking' to 'i hate myself, I am a looser, I fail at everything, i need to stop this'...............Aren't you so tired of this cycle of ********? I know I am.
Cuyootoo...................dont drink, its not worth it! x