Originally Posted by
Zebra1275 
It sounds like you're not ready to quit yet. You are only 25, you may need to go through a couple more decades of misery before you are (and I say this from personal experience).
Hmm... I'm not so sure about this advice... I was 25 when I quit 7 months ago and I went through plenty of misery, and certainly didn't need anyone telling me to keep drinking.
If you want to stay sober you have to make decisions that will keep you sober. I agree with the others, don't go to Portland.