If it is not your ego then it is FEAR.
Fear of no more 'drama' in your life.
Fear of not having someone, anyone in your life.
Fear of change,
and the list goes on.
Only when you have finally decided that enough is enough and go NO CONTACT, will your recovery really start.
Until then, every thread is the same ole same ole.
J M H O
How much longer before we actually see a thread TOTALLY ABOUT YOU with not one word about her? Sharing what YOU have been doing.
Had coffee with some friends.
Continuing my meetings.
Continuing to see my therapist.
Have been No Contact XXXX weeks.
Went bowling.
Took a weekend trip and got some great pics.
etc
etc
etc